Wednesday, October 28, 2009

What should I do with my life?

I'm having the hardest time trying to figure out what comes next in my life. I've been through so many hats: priest, writer, teacher, doctor. I feel like I've lived several different lives.

Now I'm living the somewhat enviable life of a pensioner or trustafarian, with a stable medicine gig that allows me to work only a week every few months. I'm like a recessionista without the anxiety.

I'm getting ancy. Now what?

I've considered a number of different choices for my future career/life:

Adventurer! - learn how to kitsurf/climb mountains/track wild boars/etc and go around the world being bold, foolish and attractively useless

Volunteer! - build schools in Asia. Clinic in South Africa, or here in California.

Writer! - write down my innermost thoughts on a regular basis, publish occasionally, wear a black hat, perhaps start smoking?

Filmmaker! - nuff said. Documentary films about medicine. Narratives about anything.

Doctor! - go back into fulltime medicine. Become director of an ED, or hardcome academic medicine. Do a fellowship in Critical Care or Pediatrics.

Student! - go back for an MBA, PhD in Literature or hardcore science, MFA in creative writing. Or just take general ed courses in art, literature, history, quantum physics, etc.

Dilitante! - do some combination of the above very casually. - this is currently what I'm doing with my life, to greater or lesser success.

All of them seem equally engaging, but I'm having trouble choosing. It's what I call the 'tyranny of freedom', which is both wonderful and overwhelming at the same time. It's been fantastic to really examine my priorities and what I want out of life. They include, in no particular order:

Creative outlets
A girlfriend
Sensual delights - food, sex, beautiful surroundings
Work - something worthwhile, fun and hopefully lucrarive

I hope that all of you know the joys and horrors of this kind of freedom. If you have any suggestions, let me know!


monsun said...

Whatever you decide to do, don't start smoking. ;)

Seriously, if it helps you to discuss pros and cons with others I am a perfect person to do that and willing to help. The second and third best thing about me are my excellent analytical and problem solving skills.

monsun said...

BTW: You forgot family, unless it qualifies under "friends". And "lucrative" not "lucrarive".